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ok well again people have been on at me cause of the eye liner, joking around but i cud still tell they meant it saying im a ponse and that only girls wear it, not at all, guys do wear it its just that they aint use to seeing it except for on tv and stuff like that, guys been wearing it for ages and i aint just talking bout the ones who dress up like girls at all



i bet they wudnt call half the guys that wear eye liner ponses cause they know they wud either laugh in their face and tell them to grow up and stop being so narrow minded or they wud just smack them one, now that wud be funny lol.



all i got to say to the people round where i live is fuck them cause im wearing it and they will have to deal with it, ill say it again i aint gay or a transexual, so they can think what they like i just laugh at the end of the day.



apart from that nothing new with me, just been bored, i did 5 short jobs today in an 8 hour working day, so as u can tell ive been bored out my skull, think i might bring a pillow in tomorrow.

ok well now that ive decided to start wearing eye liner which i got to say i dunno if it looks good on me or not, ill put pics up and let u decide, anyway some people think it looks good in work and then there are those narrow minded people who think im either on my way to havina sex change or think im gay, WHAT THE FUCK ARE THEY ON, IF I WAS GAY THEN I WUD JUST SAY, I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK, AND FOR THE RECORD IM NOT GAY.



i hate narrow minded people i cant stand them, let people be how they wanna be and leave it at that.



but yeah, lost it in work today i chucked a basket of stuff all over the place but no one was there so it dont matter, still lonely and pretending to be happy in work even though i hate it but i dont want them all asking questions and stuff so who cares.

cant wait till i die

ok well i know u all care and stuff but please stop asking me whats wrong or anything like that cause not even i know whats wrong with me, im just fucked up right now and really really down and lonely, i cry nearly every night now and if u think its pathetic then fine i dont give a shit anyway ok.



and another thing stop with the sorries ok cause i hate it and for all of u thinking that ull just say sorry to annoy me then forget it cause its just sad and shows how childish u r, i dont want ur sorries or thanks or anything like that.



i dont wanna offend anyone or anything like that ok its just im so angry and annoyed at myself for some reason and its nothing to do with anyone on here, i know that much cause ur all great, i love my friends on here and care for them all a great deal.



i just need to sort my head out and get everything sorted in my life, personally id just rather take a bullet and be done with it but i aint got a gun.

its a really windy and rainy night here and all my thoughts dwell on all the homeless people and animals out there i just feel so bad for them all, i picture them and i feel so sorry for them, especially the animals.

fuck the blue writing ill do it later



ive learnt never to get my hopes up or never to expect anything good to happen in my life anymore



its a lesson i should have learned agaes ago but no i still get my hopes up even now and look what happens i end up further down and depressed than what i started off, i hate this fucking life so no more expecting good things now fuck it ive had enough, im just going to think the worst of everything and then ill never be disappointed again.